Dec 29

I started my 3 round of chemo. I started yesterday and it was a long day. 10.5 hours. thank goodness trevor comes with me. but today and tomorrow are two short days, it takes about 2 hours. so i'm thrilled.

Dec 26

Just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

and I'm starting treatment on Wednesday. update later this week

dec 6 again lol

I was wondering if you could take a few minutes to view this Blog. Its amazing lady who is winning the battle on cancer and her story could help someone you know or yourself. its worth reading. She's a mom, wife and woman beating Cancer, We need more stories of success.

her name is Heather Von St James

her Blog is : http://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/authors/heather/

Dec 6 again

Just a special message to my mom

She spent a month with me, and I really loved having her here. I can't express how much help she was to me and my family.

I love her very much and she's amazing lady.

Love you alway

Dec 6, 2011

Hello All

Well as you can see I'm writing in the AM again. Trying to sleep is horrible sometimes.

I'm finished my 2nd round of chemo and it was a long few days. I had another allergic reaction to the rituxan, its a great drug for N-H-L. So we had to stop giving it to me on the first day and continue on the second. which means for long days, My body can't handle recieving it at a fast pace. Even with Hydro cortisone and tylenol and the Benadryl. (lots of it) that I received the first day the doctors were hoping that I wouldn't have the reaction, but I did.

So we started again on Wednesday with all the same drugs as before and i spent 8 hours receiving all my chemo, its very tiring

and made my heartburn horrible so i'm now on lozac. and the steroids made my breathing horrible. So it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. But hopefully when my body bounces back i'll start to feel better.

I had worst nausea this time, only lasted a few days which is good. not complaining, sounds like it but i'm not.

Some days are good and some are the same. i'm taking one day at a time. Its all part of the healing. just get thru the sucky days to live me life.

and it looks forsure I won't lose my hair. nice right. lol

Nov 24

Just a quick update:

I'm finishing my 3 weeks off, Things are going well, i'm still tired but feeling fine

I did my christmas decorating because next week I start my chemo again and i'm not sure how I will feel, so now I can relax and enjoy my tree's.. yes I have 2

so i'll starting posting next week again

love you all

love this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lf82Qf3a0Kc

I know this is about breast cancer but the words mean so much,

Any person who has cancer can relate and their spouses. I just think of Trevor and I have so much support from him. Him being away right now is so hard on him. I think its worst for him then me. I have my mom and kids with me. but he's in Kingston trying to make our lives better. I can hear in his voice that he hates being away. I think sometimes he feels guilty, But I'm so proud of him. He's amazing husband and father. He has to think of the future, even if something is to happen to me (it won't), he's still has himself and the kids to think of. But when I get thru this it will make it all worth while.

this song is for the ppl who have to look at their loves ones who are sick.

Nov 8

I'm awake again, its seems to be me now, the only one awake at night.

Today I got my PICC Line cleaned and did a little shopping, not to much. But a little to get some fresh air.

I've noticed some of the swelling on my neck is gone down. Hopefully that's a really good sign that the chemo is working. kicking the shit out of my cancer.

Did I just type that word, it still seems weird to me sometimes that I have it. wow

Just thinking of the past year feeling so crappy, people saying its work, blah blah blah...

you know your own body, fight for a good result even if its good or bad. just at least your doing something about it.

you know your own body

Nov 6, 2011

Hi All

Well I had company on the weekend, it was good to see Michele and Avery,

we had a good time.

thanks for coming guys

Weekend is here

Well another sleepless night, going for another nap. I rather have a sleepless night then my head in the toilet.. hahahahaha

Just over whelmed with the love and support from my family and friends. Its a great thing to have.

Trevor is keeping a close eye on me, he worries so much, he doesn't say much but I know him well, after 20 years together, we certainly know each other.

Nov 4

I slept most of the night. I'm so happy. One of the pills they have me on, changes my sleep pattern, so I don't know when I'll fall a sleep or wake up thru the night. all this week has been different. the one thing they did say that, I'll crash every once in a while and i did last night. So i'm laying in bed with my new lap top trevor bought me last night, YES HE DID!!! writing in my blog. and i'm thinking -

I'm feeling well this morning and i'm thinking life is Good!!!!!

First Week over

Well just woke up from a nap and I'm thrilled first week done. now I have 3 weeks off, I go back on Nov 29, 30 and Dec 1 for treatment again. I have appointments between chemo treatments, keeping my Picc line clean and seeing GP (oncologist) and having blood works to make sure everything is good.

Where do I begin

Well its been a long year and a bit. My first diagnosis was that I was anemic because I was so tired. Then In January I had a bowel abscess, which landed me in the hospital for 6 long days and while there they found a dermoid cyst on my left ovary which they removed in May. Meanwhile while checking my thyroid they found 3 enlarged lymph nodes, (still feeling tired and unwell). So I went to a wonderful ENT (Ears, Nose, Throat doctor), his name was Dr. Thompson. He took a needle biopsy and the results came back inconclusive saying that more tests needed to be done, then I had another needle biopsy but this time it was of the larger lymph node and it was done by ultra sound. Again nothing; same results as before. But each time I went back I had more and more swollen lymph nodes. Dr Thompson was concerned so he took out a lymph node to be tested. This was between April 28 and Aug 18, when I first found my first results. So my first Results was Chronic lymphocytic leukemia. they thought it was in the first stage and maybe I wouldn't be treated for awhile. Now off to my oncologist, he did blood work, Bone marrow and bone biopsy test and PET scan. And on Sept 19, I found out I had Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma stage 4, and needing chemotherapy, ASAP