Thursday, November 24, 2011

Nov 24

Just a quick update:
I'm finishing my 3 weeks off, Things are going well, i'm still tired but feeling fine
I did my christmas decorating because next week I start my chemo again and i'm not sure how I will feel, so now I can relax and enjoy my tree's.. yes I have 2
so i'll starting posting next week again
love you all

love this song

I know this is about breast cancer but the words mean so much,
Any person who has cancer can relate and their spouses. I just think of Trevor and I have so much support from him. Him being away right now is so hard on him. I think its worst for him then me. I have my mom and kids with me. but he's in Kingston trying to make our lives better. I can hear in his voice that he hates being away. I think sometimes he feels guilty, But I'm so proud of him. He's amazing husband and father. He has to think of the future, even if something is to happen to me (it won't), he's still has himself and the kids to think of. But when I get thru this it will make it all worth while.
this song is for the ppl who have to look at their loves ones who are sick.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Nov 8

I'm awake again, its seems to be me now, the only one awake at night.
Today I got my PICC Line cleaned and did a little shopping, not to much. But a little to get some fresh air.
I've noticed some of the swelling on my neck is gone down. Hopefully that's a really good sign that the chemo is working. kicking the shit out of my cancer.
Did I just type that word, it still seems weird to me sometimes that I have it. wow
Just thinking of the past year feeling so crappy, people saying its work, blah blah blah...
you know your own body, fight for a good result even if its good or bad. just at least your doing something about it.
you know your own body

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Nov 6, 2011

Hi All
Well I had company on the weekend, it was good to see Michele and Avery,
we had a good time.
thanks for coming guys

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Weekend is here

Well another sleepless night, going for another nap. I rather have a sleepless night then my head in the toilet.. hahahahaha
Just over whelmed with the love and support from my family and friends. Its a great thing to have.
Trevor is keeping a close eye on me, he worries so much, he doesn't say much but I know him well, after 20 years together, we certainly know each other.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Nov 4

I slept most of the night. I'm so happy. One of the pills they have me on, changes my sleep pattern, so I don't know when I'll fall a sleep or wake up thru the night. all this week has been different. the one thing they did say that, I'll crash every once in a while and i did last night. So i'm laying in bed with my new lap top trevor bought me last night, YES HE DID!!! writing in my blog. and i'm thinking -
I'm feeling well this morning and i'm thinking life is Good!!!!!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

First Week over

Well just woke up from a nap and I'm thrilled first week done. now I have 3 weeks off, I go back on Nov 29, 30 and Dec 1 for treatment again. I have appointments between chemo treatments, keeping my Picc line clean and seeing GP (oncologist) and having blood works to make sure everything is good.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Where do I begin

Well its been a long year and a bit. My first diagnosis was that I was anemic because I was so tired. Then In January I had a bowel abscess, which landed me in the hospital for 6 long days and while there they found a dermoid cyst on my left ovary which they removed in May. Meanwhile while checking my thyroid they found 3 enlarged lymph nodes, (still feeling tired and unwell). So I went to a wonderful ENT (Ears, Nose, Throat doctor), his name was Dr. Thompson. He took a needle biopsy and the results came back inconclusive saying that more tests needed to be done, then I had another needle biopsy but this time it was of the larger lymph node and it was done by ultra sound. Again nothing; same results as before. But each time I went back I had more and more swollen lymph nodes. Dr Thompson was concerned so he took out a lymph node to be tested. This was between April 28 and Aug 18, when I first found my first results. So my first Results was Chronic lymphocytic leukemia. they thought it was in the first stage and maybe I wouldn't be treated for awhile. Now off to my oncologist, he did blood work, Bone marrow and bone biopsy test and PET scan. And on Sept 19, I found out I had Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma stage 4, and needing chemotherapy, ASAP